The legendary life of FORM 6 or maybe not.

Okay let's settle this once and for all. Why did I choose to join form 6? Didn't I have a good family background that's wealthy enough to support me for college? Did I actually screw up in my SPM which in terms causing me to take form 6?

HAHA, not to show off, but to prove I am not bragging bout it!

Answer is, I am not rich neither am I poor. Like regular families, I got the chance to go overseas once a year and maybe some trips within our wonderful Malaysia. I am beyond grateful for this family, honestly! Next I didn't screw up my SPM, I got a few scholarships offered by various institutes shortly after applying, but none really appealed to me. I covet for a full scholarship, when I say full scholarship, I really do mean it! Some colleges offer full scholarships, but there are tonnes of terms and conditions. Not to mention, the scholarships are just for the tuition waver, not including all the miscellaneous fees. Well, for most people, they are happy as long as they obtain the scholarship no matter if it's 20%, 50% or 100% because their parents got them covered. I am totally not gonna settle on something that doesn't meet my criteria. ALL of the scholarships are 'Aids in Education' for the students in name, but going further in depth, they are all business gimmicks to attract the students! I bet you have seen hawkers yelling for promotions in order to get more customers, selling cheaper but in massive quantity as the crowd grows. One way or another, they are all co-related. Education has been the far most expensive investment to me at this stage of life. They all said, you can apply for PTPTN aka Perbadanan Tabung Pendidikan Tinggi Nasional. (FYI, PTPTN is only applicable if you are taking diploma, bachelor degree and above etc. Foundation or A-levels are not accepted.!) Without doubts, it is certainly the best way to get enrolled into a private college/university if your family have financial constraints. (I mean getting PTPTN) But, I really can't bear to do so. Everyone hopes for a degree to achieve better living in the future, but do they know that they are already being bound financially? You study to earn a living, but first you pay to study. See? Education is expensive and costly. (I hope it doesn't stress you out that an air of gloom settles you like a heavy net.) Therefore, I came to a conclusion, that is to pursue my studies in Form 6. (TBH, I have so much more to talk about Form 6, but this came out of sudden, therefore part 2 of this post would be a little different!)

Carrying a huge debts on your shoulder!

HAHA GOT YA!

An offer I hope I never get.

Part 2: Choices.
Let's get to the fun part LOL. Believe me, it isn't fun at all. I got an offer from KMJ aka Kolej Matrikulasi Johor after making 'rayuan' with one click on the website...OK. (crying while rolling on the floor) You would think that its a great news, I should enroll blissfully to KMJ. No, I don't know. After all, I thought I had settled down in F6, having a new life with a new batch of friends, I didn't expect myself to get this offer. Now, I am plagued with this issue again, I am caught off guard...again. Brooding over this matter, I know that Form 6 education is far more challenging compared to matriculation, in terms of syllabus. But concerning the pros and cons, I am on the edge of breaking down now...

-STPM is internationally recognized, but matriculation only develops a path towards public universities.

-STPM is tougher, harder as the exam is handled by Majlis Peperiksaan Malaysia (MPM), and from what I heard from previous year's seniors, they struggled even if they achieved superbly in their SPM. It's basically hell.

-Matriculation students are usually get into public university easier compared to STPM students. The arrangement is such as 1) Asasi 2) Matrikulasi 3) STPM/F6
In short, the possibility of STPM cert holders being accepted into public Uni are very low, let alone getting the course/university of your choice. Even a four flat aka 4.0 doesn't guarantee you to obtain the right course at the right public university.

-But worst case scenario, if you couldn't get your preferred course in uni after Matriks, what you can do is accept it and move on. Either that or you can retake another course in private college. Cause the cert by matriks will not be accepted by any private uni.

-Matriks gives allowances of rm250+- per month, which STPM doesn't.

-I have good teachers and nice peers in F6. But God knows who I am gonna meet in matriks...

-I will be alone without my parents, and no one's gonna cook me dinner anymore...No one's gonna hear me bragging about my stuffs...

-I have never been to Johor in my whole life. What if the alien comes to EAT me? Or EAT my parents while I am gone? Who will be protecting them?

-Totally not gonna compare STPM and matriks english level. Cause I truly think both still requires great improvement.

This offer comes out in such an inopportune time especially when I thought I am already on the right track...I have not discussed this matter with my parents or anyone close to me. I don't really want to create unnecessary turmoil cause I know my parents would urge me to take Matriks as they assume that I need some time-out as I am so spoiled. LOL. haha, tbh one thing i didnt really achieve is to make any close friends in f6...i couldnt find someone to entrust my secrets and stuffs. even when i am surrounded by people, i still feel lonely. because i stand alone, people around me either stand in pairs or in groups. now, i feel even worst, do the God knows i feel so badly that He is actually offering an escape rope for me? i mean, life is average. but i am not happy here either. would i be happy there? (Sorry, you don't have to read this. Just ignore it, will you?)




Sometimes we have to choose between planting roots or growing wings.

Growing wings?

Or planting roots?